Hi people, sorry for not updating that much. It is probably because of me being sad. Yeah thats right, i'm breaking, cant act so tough anymore. Missing my life proves to be unbearable. Everyday I wake up I feel like i'm going to the school that I cherish most along with the people and memories. Instead when I come down to bathe I found out i'm not going to that same school anymore. I thought it was all a dream, guess what, its reality. Believe it or not after 3 months I finally realize what's happening and I start to feel the emptiness getting larger in my life. My life has lost its identity and glory. I feel like i'm a robot who do everything the same way, everyday with the same routine. Nothing spontaneous is happening for 3 months and i'm craving for joy. I hate to be the person i'm not. Everything change, people might see it in a good way, but guess what; those changes are actually making me suffer. In fact I am tortured by the feeling of guilt,sadness and above all; regret! I can't shout to the world because I can't find somewhere to shout without any boundaries. Everyone thought I just miss my old life, what they don't know is that i'm actually suffering inside. It proves that I've held the feeling inside me for 3 months more or less. I'm not being dramatic here i'm telling the world how I feel but this alone can't help me to feel better.
Sorry for the intense emotion being displayed above
Sincerely; Irfan
Aiyerrrr. be strong, be cool, be though. just try to get along with everyone and everything will be fine. insyaallah. mat plastic is macho anyway :P
ReplyDeletep/s : Tok wan and Opah kirim salam :)